Is this it?

I find myself asking this question more often than usual. I'm not sure if its because I feel like I have not accomplished enough, or I am not being challenged enough. It bothers me how life can be quite...predictable.  Today I found myself thinking that life tends to be so mundane at times, a constant  repetitive cycle.

Its a constant struggle not to slip into the state of non-nonchalance.Figuratively speaking I feel like I'm standing still while everyone walks by me. Its not that I'm not accomplishing what I want, its just that things are not happening the way I want them to. If I were to imagine the way my life would be like four years ago now, this would not be what I imagine. I want more. I feel sometimes I'm not completely happy with my decisions. This year being a constant reminder of that. It simply re-enforces the ideas of what could have been. What could my life be like if I had done this instead of that. I find myself feeling unappreciated sometimes.

It really is a constant struggle not to slip into this state of depression. As much as I want things to change, I feel as though I have no power over bringing about the change. This ultimately is what tends to tarnish my self confidence as well as contributes to the slight depression I may feel at times. We always try to reach our goals and make sure we are happy with our decisions, but it seems like the world is not going to have it easy on us. Its not easy when your constantly comparing yourself to others. I'm not sure about everyone else but that, I think is one of my major problems.

Okay enough with the negativity. My new mantra for the year, and I guess for life in general, is to radiate positivity. I refuse to let certain situations get me down. Its up to me to ensure that I maintain a positive attitude as that is the only way I'll get through these situations. I feel like a positive state of mind can get you through almost any situation.So whatever it is you are going through, look for the silver lining and focus on that instead. Do not let one single bad experience be your downfall. Life I guess is full of them and letting them get to you means you wont be able to navigate your way through the dangerous unknown territory we call life. Okay, maybe not so dangerous, but sometimes it does feel like the unknown. With that I sign off.