Healing

Underneath the moon and stars I stir gathering broken pieces. They told me broken hearts heal in time, but no one told me of broken souls. Of the strength required to re-collect pieces of yourself to simply feel whole. I wept as I stitched myself back together. The moon and stars bared witness as I struggled to find myself in the darkness. As I wept for my innocence and resented myself. As I drowned in my pain and found companionship with my demons. I wish I had been told of how healing comes in waves. How each new wave is stronger than the last. How sometimes the most intricate pieces of your soul drift the furthest. How in the morning once the moon and stars have gone, I have to gather my emotions and begin again at dusk. ~K

2017 Theme: Manifestation

This is very overdue but happy 2017! I am hoping that 2017 is a year of growth, fulfillment and manifestation. This brings me to my resolution, wait....no theme of 2017. To manifest. I first sought to understand the true definition of this word which I thought I understood, but was surprised to find I had misinterpreted.The word manifest is defined as clear or obvious to the naked eye. Synonyms for manifest include; clear, apparent, obvious, palpable, distinct, perceptible, undeniable and recognizable, to name a few. So I was thinking how do I apply this to my life in a more figurative sense?  So, one can manifest in different aspects of their lives whether it be in their personal, professional or spiritual lives.

I looked at these three categories and came up with what I would like to manifest in these three areas of my life, Firstly I would like every aspect of my life to be distinct, obvious or apparent. Gone are the days where I simply muddle through without a clear idea of what it is I would like to achieve. As I continue to evolve as an individual and attain a better sense of  my goals and how to achieve them, I want my growth to manifest. I want it to be apparent that I have grown, if not for anyone then for myself. In terms of my personal life my goal is to be content in who I am, to be happy with my achievements and not undermine myself constantly. I want to grow as an individual by taking necessary pauses to reflect on my mistakes and instead of chastising myself for them, instead think: How can I do better? I feel as though once I am secure and content within myself and this is evident, I will be able to attract a like minded individual as a spouse or life partner. To be able to manifest your confidence and certainty in yourself as an individual is important in various other aspects of life.

In a professional sense I aspire to be good at what I do, be passionate about what I do and simply be happy with what it is I am doing.Without passion there can be no purpose, as without intent we can not manifest. I aspire to work hard, which in of itself sounds so cliche, but I would like to grow as a young professional and simply work to my full potential. At the end of the day its more about your drive and interest in your job rather than how much your earning. With this being said I would like to manifest an intellectual mind and a determined persona, an inquisitive thirst for knowledge and cultivate an urge to strive towards an  indelible career.

Last but not least is spiritual manifestation. This is one aspect I feel needs the most reconstruction, if I can put it that way. My relationship with God and what purpose that serves in my life. I believe He keeps me centered. I have faith in his timing and the plans He has for my life. I intend to be clear in my relationship with Him, to praise Him in times of crisis and in times of joy. I aim to be spiritually centered. I feel as though once you have found that calm in your spiritual life, other aspects of your life stay in tune. Your spiritual life is the center around which everything else evolves.

And so let 2017 be the year of rapid growth, May every goal and aspiration come to manifest, may we find what it is we have been searching for in our personal, professional and spiritual lives. And most importantly may we be happy with the our intent and subsequent consequences of our choices.

Here's to 2017!

Expectations

I have really neglected my blog. Apologies, I've been busy with school and all. I can't believe I am now the holder of a masters degree. It hasn't really sunk in yet. It honestly feels like it was just yesterday I was preparing to travel to the UK and now I'm back and have completed my studies. I guess time really does fly when you're enjoying yourself. Well, I am back and I still feel as though I am trying to figure out which direction I want my life to take. I have always been passionate about health so I strive to make an impact in the global health arena.

Since I've been back I have realised that people have these expectations from you which you are expected to live up to. I have watched most of my high school classmates get engaged, married and have children and I feel people are now expecting me to follow suite in terms of my personal life. I guess it makes sense since I have attained a second degree and the next step would be finding "Mr Right". With my track record, I don't forsee that happening anytime soon. I feel as though I need to figure out where my career is heading and get settled in that aspect of my life first. That's my priority right now.

I in no way feel pressured to find a husband or marry. I don't know why. It just has not bothered me. I actually don't think I'll get married and if I ever do it'll be when I am past the age of 33 most probably.  A part of me, however, does feel broody. I see babies ad I catch myself imagining what one of my own would look like. Little fingers and little toes and a cute little nose. Anyone who knows me knows I have a thing for babies. I absolutely adore them. So much so that I find myself looking at the baby section in shops. It's such a problem yet I can't help it, anything baby related is so stinking cute. It's strange how I drift between not wanting children at all and feeling broody.

Anyway, I am expected to marry and have children in the near future. I'm just not sure this is what I actually want. I've been struggling to feel motivated to do anything at the moment. I do hope that that this feeling soon passes. All in all, I'm beginning to realize that I don't need to live up to anybody's expectations but my own.

Recollect

I haven't posted anything for quite sometime and I have been trying to get myself to blog more. Well it's been an interesting couple of months. I feel as though I have messed up and I'm still trying to fix the wrongs. At this point there is nothing I can do except console myself and vow never to repeat the same mistake. Just as much as things are kind of falling apart, they are coming together.

So today I came across this beautiful blog (which motivated me to get back in the swing of things) which I sat and gushed over for several hours. Filled with beatiful images and lovely stories. I found it so intriguing. I couldn't get over how simple yet captivating it was. Then I got thinking, why don't I blog more too!
Sharing is such a beautiful thing and if you can why not share. Whether it's style tips or life experiences.

I feel as though the next couple of months will be a major turning point in my life. I will be undergoing some major life changes which I am extremely excited about. I can barely wait! I want to take in every moment, not down every experience and just make the most of it.

I think I need to make some major changes internally and sort of gather myself so I can refocus as I feel in the past year I have lost focus, lost sight of what is relevant and necessary for my personal growth and well being.

Here is to the beginning of yet another new journey.

K.

Recollect

I haven't posted anything for quite sometime and I have been trying to get myself to blog more. Well it's been an interesting couple of months. I feel as though I have messed up and I'm still trying to fix the wrongs. At this point there is nothing I can do except console myself and vow never to repeat the same mistake. Just as much as things are kind of falling apart, they are coming together.

So today I came across this beautiful blog (which motivated me to get back in the swing of things) which I sat and gushed over for several hours. Filled with beatiful images and lovely stories. I found it so intriguing. I couldn't get over how simple yet captivating it was. Then I got thinking, why don't I blog more too!
Sharing is such a beautiful thing and if you can why not share. Whether it's style tips or life experiences.

I feel as though the next couple of months will be a major turning point in my life. I will be undergoing some major life changes which I am extremely excited about. I can barely wait! I want to take in every moment, not down every experience and just make the most of it.

I think I need to make some major changes internally and sort of gather myself so I can refocus as I feel in the past year I have lost focus, lost sight of what is relevant and necessary for my personal growth and well being.

Here is to the beginning of yet another new journey.

K.

Recollect

I haven't posted anything for quite sometime and I have been trying to get myself to blog more. Well it's been an interesting couple of months. I feel as though I have messed up and I'm still trying to fix the wrongs. At this point there is nothing I can do except console myself and vow never to repeat the same mistake. Just as much as things are kind of falling apart, they are coming together.

So today I came across this beautiful blog (which motivated me to get back in the swing of things) which I sat and gushed over for several hours. Filled with beatiful images and lovely stories. I found it so intriguing. I couldn't get over how simple yet captivating it was. Then I got thinking, why don't I blog more too!
Sharing is such a beautiful thing and if you can why not share. Whether it's style tips or life experiences.

I feel as though the next couple of months will be a major turning point in my life. I will be undergoing some major life changes which I am extremely excited about. I can barely wait! I want to take in every moment, not down every experience and just make the most of it.

I think I need to make some major changes internally and sort of gather myself so I can refocus as I feel in the past year I have lost focus, lost sight of what is relevant and necessary for my personal growth and well being.

Here is to the beginning of yet another new journey.

K.

Happy

I realized today that there are different levels of happiness and the older you get the more intense it is.
When your young you would be happy about passing your math test or finding the last pair of jeans in your size. These small things,  they still exist and we all have our small moments of happiness but then there are the big things.  These would include finding your life partner among other things. These also include having a baby and watching your children grow up. The major things. Usually it works both ways. Almost as if it's an equation that always needs to be balanced. Life is centered around balance.  This meaning the level of sadness is increased aswell. This is an emotion nobody wants intensified.  When everything goes wrong,  it goes terribly wrong. But when your happy, you pay no attention to what could go wrong sometimes. We forget how vulnerable we really are. That what is there won't always be there, the people we love won't always be there to support us. That thought alone is pretty disheartening.  We all know nothing lasts forever but as humans we try by all means to ignore this fact. That's why I think you should embrace every moment of happiness.  Whether it's something small or major. Revel in it for it may not last long. This is the main aim in life, to be happy. So take a moment and soak it all in. No matter how insignificant it may seem.