Update

Hey there:)

Been a while I know, I've been busy. Work is going well and I'm doing pretty okay, I think....
I am excited however that I am about a third through my internship. The best part is that I have a plan for next year and now have an idea of what I want to study *phew*. I was stressed about that as I felt I had no sense of direction and felt pretty much naive. Feels great to have a sense of direction again.

So my plan is to apply for uni next year but I''ll apply for a job and work a couple of months next year too.  Hopefully I can save up to lighten the financial load on my parents. For the past couple of months I was feeling off. I think that had to do with graduating and finishing uni. The idea that one chapter of your life has ended and that its time for something new. Don't get me wrong, I'm all for new experiences but this year started off on a bad note due to my grandmother and Brian passing away. I feel I am finally at a point where I am at peace and I've accepted it for what it is. I mean I had to right? No matter how sad the passing of a loved one is, you cant be stuck in that rut forever. You need to put yourself together and eventually move on, which is what i am trying to do.

The exciting news so far is being an aunt, since my lovely cousin ha decided to bring forth new life into this world. I am looking forward to the arrival of the little one. I love babies. As for any other aspect of my life....boring. what I expected to happen in terms of romantic affairs never came to be so i have reconciled and willed myself to just get over it and move on. Apart from Him, I don not see any other hopeful prospect. I think I really need to meet new people. I feel like I am not social enough and spend way too many weekends at home for someone my age. Just the other day I was thinking that I might actually not get married. That seems like such a far fetched idea to me right now. Really weird when I know about three or so friends and classmates of mine who are married or engaged. Some of them have kids. Don't get me wrong I would love to be a mom some day but not anytime soon. I need at least another six to ten years to sort myself out first. There is no way I would be able to deal with a baby right now anyway.

Okay what else is there to blab about..lol uhm, okay so I am psyched for next year and I am preparing, extra early, for the board exams. I will kick ass. I really cant wait to finish this internship. They say good thing come to those who wait and life has a way of working itself out. I sure hope that is true. And with that I sign out.